Pain...

So He started dating, worse yet its with one of my friends that he had to lie about and hid from me. This girl had the nerve to say she wants to get closer to me, since she's gonna be in our life...By Our I mean Mine and Adrianna's...................Oh I flipped out. It wouldv'e been differnt if they wouldn't of snook around, and would've had some respect and came to me first. Its not that they needed my permission, Just out of respect, She knows how I feel about trevor and how things are with us. Of course it hurt me, But what hurts the most is he is taking our kid around her kid after 3 days of knowing eachother. Bullshit! Its like everything is crashing in around me... Like God has something against me, I know I'm not perfect, I know I make and have made mistakes, But I deserve happiness. I deserve to be loved, I deserve for something to go right for me. I just feel like such a failure for my daughter, Like I cant do it. If it weren't for her I wouldnt be writting this. I have never cried more, nver beeen so afraid of tomorrow. But seing her face makes it easier, makes it all alittle less lonely.